Sometimes I Become a Raging Lunatic.
So for a long time, I’ve been taking L-Phenylalanine.
This is the amino acid in which I was deficient – so much so, in fact, that when I took one capsule (instead of the daily recommended dosage of 3-4 capsules), I was cured.
By “cured,” I mean “not mean anymore.”
By nature, I am not a mean person. In fact, most of my issues stem from trying to be nice but not being very good at it. I am also mostly nice to trees and animals, rather than people. But that’s another story.
Still, sometimes I scream. This frequently happens when I do not want to scream – like when I scream at my dearly beloved children. (I am still debating on whether or not I want to scream at my husband.)
But sometimes I become a raging lunatic. Most of the time that I gets to the “raging lunatic” phase, I am totally alone. These are not moments I wish to share with other people.
So when I first found L-Phenylalanine, I was thrilled. I could take one capsule and stop myself from screaming. It didn’t keep me from getting angry, but it did stop me from angering beyond the point of “normal.” In other words, something could happen like, say, a car could cut me off in traffic – and I would not scream at the other driver!
This was a miracle.
It was so much of a miracle that I started giving L-Phenylalanine to others. I gave it to my dad, since he and I are a lot alike. Unfortunately, my dad didn’t have the deficiency. When he took L-Phenylalanine, he actually became a raging lunatic! It had the complete opposite effect on him!
So two weeks ago, I was sitting at my computer, emailing a complete stranger. I was sobbing – tears were gushing from my eyes – and I was so angry, I was shaking. I could barely type, but I was able to create a two-page document in spite of the shaking and the crying.
I perceived an injustice from this stranger, and I wanted to explain my perception.
I emailed the complete stranger what I considered to be a very profound email about the human condition, fairness and justice, and faith in the human race. I expected this email to provide a pivotal point in her life, which she would read and then use to go forward on a higher plane in her human existence.
That didn’t happen.
What did happen is that my husband came near me and I acted like a rabid dog. When he mentioned pizza, the boys scurried to the car as fast as they could, just to get away from me. And when they came home, I left and went for a two-hour drive, angered beyond recognition, sobbing at the red lights.
A few days later, I was still a mess. I’d been doing a liver cleanse and eating healthily and my attitude was great up until this perceived injustice. But I couldn’t stop raging.
The family even had an intervention. “You’re always a little weird,” they said. “But lately, you’re just completely nuts!”
After some thought, and reconsideration of all of my vitamins, I “temporarily” stopped taking L-Phenylalanine.
And I have been 100% fine ever since.